Hello dear Melinda, I still remember my first post here, it was the night before my surgery in June 2011. I would like to send you all my love and support during this challenging time you are facing, and mainly I would like to tell you that it is not as hard as you think right now!! I was devastated and confused a few months ago, worried for my 5 months old baby and husband, now I tell you I feel in control of my life and happier than ever.
It is amazing that you have that dream telling you what to do, I feel like if that voice was your " inner wise woman" and you must trust on the power of your body working in harmony with your mind and soul to overcome this difficult period.
I was also super worried about chemo, the pink ladies here must remember ha! and I need to say it is not as bad as it sounds, I had 3 cycles every 21 days and then 6 weekly cycles and I almost did not have side effects. I lost my hair after my 2nd cycle and I still have a looooooootttt of fatigue thats pretty much all! No nausea, no vomiting, no pain, nothing!
I did take with me many things that made me feel happy to the chemo unit, such as pictures of family and friends, lavander oil (which gives tranquility) nice music and please concentrate during the moment they are giving you the drugs in something nice and guide the drugs (with your mind and heart) to only touch the cancer cells and protect the good cells. I would like to recommend a book which changes my life YOU CAN CONQUER CANCER BY IAN GAWLER. if you are in melbourne or can take a few days here, please visit the gawler foundation web-site for programs starting next year, it is a beautiful place to get help, support and guidance!!
All the best in your journey and count on me in whatever I can help!!
Leonor
