@Afraser - Thank you. Yes I do feel fortunate especially as this has been the third cancer diagnosis for me (all different) so to get out of this lightly is such a blessing. I appreciate your thoughts.
@Zoffiel You hit the nail on the head regarding my husband and yes one of us was going to feel like shit. I am always about other and how they feel that I don't put much thought to me, I think I really do need to seek a councelor as I have never really delved deep into any of my cancer diagnosis, I have dealt with the issues, treatment and gotton on with it. I always dig my feelings down as I needed/need to be strong for others. Thank you for input.