Love your post name!
There's a helluva lot going on physically and emotionally!
Great advice on offer, please wear this forum and website out searching for info, when you are ready!
A visit with a Psychologist will help put your thoughts and steps in a semblance of order that helps.
I was told if you are starting to feel overwhelmed pat yourself on both legs and then arms, saying this is me.....it brought me into now and washed the anxiousness away!
There's a great website with regard to reconstruction and also a list of what to pack for Hospital. Us forum users contributed to formulating the list
https://www.reclaimyourcurves.org.au/Also this link
http://knittedknockersaustralia.com/Lots of info available
https://onlinenetwork.bcna.org.au/discussion/23810/triple-negative/p1Take care and best wishes