Cancerversary

@arpie no I won’t find out until appointment with surgeon 5th March 🙁 I did ring breast care nurse...she said it all looked fine but still see surgeon. Are they allowed to give us the results? 

I got my results on the same day but spoke to the doctor reviewing the screens.  But that was after they called me back in for a further ultrasound and knew that I was thinking the worst.  I had my appointment with the surgeon the following day.

@Sister the only thing that concerns me is I had the 3D mammogram with the contrast and was told with the 3D I wouldn’t need an ultra sound and then I was told I’d need one and so I’m over thinking it lol 

I make sure I have an ultrasound now, @Hendrix  as I don't trust just having a Mammogram - even the 3D ones  (dense breast tissue doesn't show up tumours on mammograms - tho the 3D are better than the Breastscreen ones) .... so try not to over think it - I call it insurance - I'd rather have both scans done than just the one.

The breast care nurse from the Port Macquarie Cancer Centre gave me my results over the phone (nothing to worry about) and I then had the report printed out by my GP.  Try not to overthink it ... tho the waiting really IS the pits  :(

take care & all the best xxxx

Thanks @arpie Yes the waiting is the pits..ugh!! 😊

Same with me @hendrix.  When I was called in for the ultrasound, the girl was trying to chat cheerfully to me while I was already planning how to tell the family and what I was going to do about telling them at work.  After the doctor spoke to me and said it was all okay (they couldn't get the previous scans from Breastscreen so she couldn't compare), I burst into tears and the girl who was doing the scans apologised profusely - she knew what I was thinking and that it was probably okay, but she's not allowed to say anything.

@Sister I was trying to turn around and look at the screen when she walked out to compare last ultrasound...but couldn’t cause she had me in a odd position lol

Two years ago today I was diagnosed with breast cancer. It's been two years I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. You guys know the depths to which it takes you. It's no use wishing, but if I had a magic wand I would magic the last two years away.

I'll never be one of the people who says cancer "saved" me. The loss of my breasts, the loss of of my confidence, the major depression, the damage to my hands, the brutal medical menopause and the ongoing side effects of the medication... It's the price you pay for life and I regret none of the treatment decisions I've made, but ye gods it's hard.

My second cancerversary hasn't been as difficult as the first. However I couldn't get to sleep until 2am last night, and today my energy and focus has been very scattered.

Two years ago my life was diverted onto a different path. Along the way I've met some truly wonderful people, made some beautiful new friends, had some great experiences, and made some deep, nurturing connections. I like to think that if I hadn't had cancer I might have done all these things, just differently. I'll never know, but letting go of what I thought my life was going to be is tremendously challenging.

Life knocks us all around. One in two of us will get cancer. One in seven of us women will have breast cancer. I like to think I'm wiser and more empathetic. I'm certainly sadder. And boy am I tired. But it's a milestone, getting to two years without a recurrence, and one I'm very happy to reach.

Thank you all for your support. K xox

It is 2 years, @kmakm so a milestone to be relieved about.  

Dear @Sister and @kmakm, 
I think of you ladies together. In December 2017 I had just found the network after completing radiotherapy following lumpectomy and chemo; all 'kicking off' in May 2017.  In December 2017 and January 2018 you were in the thick of things I think

from jennyss in Western NSW