kmakm - not 'better' yet? I believe I will never be the person I was before diagnosis and I've given myself permission to be short tempered, irritable, a bit sad at times, to cancel meeting a friend because I'm too tired or not feeling social etc etc. I have developed a new habit, maybe its a ritual, I have a beautiful little statue in which I can place a tea candle - if I hear or see something beautiful, or for acts of kindness, I light a candle of thanks and appreciation. Today it was a butterfly on a flower in the back garden.
I realised within the first few months after diagnosis, masectomy etc. that it was up to me, that I would let others know how I wanted to do this (its been seven years of ongoing treatment) but always with thanks. Find your own way, no one else will walk your path as well as you and isn't India the best place to affirm you, who you are now? One being in the midst of many, but each one precious and unique and 'doing' as best as they can manage. Be easy on yourself!