@ kayB55 A valued counselor put the idea of finding the whole business interesting into my head years ago. It's been my stabilizing response when everything gets all screwed up because it is interesting. Frightening, sickening, confronting, confusing and painful on occasions, but always interesting.
Even now--13 years since the shitfight started and dealing with a raft of complications that I could use to float across the Pacific--I find the whole process endlessly fascinating. I do wish for peace, relief and normality, but if I can't have that I might as well be entertained. You can learn a lot about your body, personality and relationships if you distance yourself a bit and view your treatment and survival as a bit of a case study.
It's great that you are coping; if you have managed the first one with minimum fuss, you are well set up for the rest. Things can get a bit horrible toward the end of your first week if you have a strong response to the drug they give you to boost your white blood cells and learning to manage your bowels can be a challenge, but that passes. Well done, you. MXX
