My story

Hello everyone,

I have not bloged for a while.  Have been busy starting a new job which I love. Manifestation of positivity brings positive things.  This job landed on my lap.  God has been so good to me.  5 mins from home and working with a great team.  2 more years until retirement and I could not have wished to see out 35 years of nursing in aged care in a better spot!  What a great way to finish a crap year!!  Never mind - I have been well thank God.  Have been on Femera since diagnosis in the middle of Sept.  Had my two weeks of radium for # sternum which was the initial painful spot that forced me to go to the Dr.  Am having Denosamab injection monthly (2nd one this Wed) and go back and see my oncologist in a month.  Blood tests before hand to see what the ole cancer markers are doing.  I had a melt down this morning.  Over the last few days of a night when I lie on my left side I get some pain in my left hip area.  Not severe but discomfort.  I have never had that before.  It was not one of my "hot spots" with the boney mets.  The right side was.  Of course I thought "God this has spread!!"  Then of course other areas felt worse than they were most probably I was thinking that rather than it being an actuality.  This disease is so incidious.  The deamon thoughts come into your head when the above happens and I try soooooo hard to think of positive things to get myself out of it.  Most times i am very good at it but sometimes it takes a little longer.  I guess that is OK.  I am sure you have all felt the above feelings and we just have to be kind to ourselves and see it as normal.  I have been for a bike ride today and a swim and this afternoon I fee back on track.  Just wanted to connect with you guys because that makes me feel happy and very positive.  Your all inspirational women and I draw from that.  I have to get on here more often and say hello.  Does not have to be for support just to connect and say Hi guys hope your all well and having fun. A dear friend who has had a bad year with illness (not cancer) sent me the following message today on an email.  I would like to leave you on this note.  

"Each day gives us another chance to dream

Look to the sky and never stop believing"

God bless and stay well xxxx