Hi! Hope you have been able to sleep a little better since you first wrote this post. Don't beat yourself up it is not unusual. I found once I had surgery my thoughts were along the lines of hang on, what happened, how did I get here and where am I going now? I am a fairly practical person so soon put my thoughts where they belonged and occasionally they come out to haunt me, even now after 3 surgeries, treatment, which is ongoing and 15 months since diagnosis.
What helps me, I have always had a radio to listen to when I head to bed, sometimes I hear 2 minutes and other times the hour disappears and it goes off and I think where did that hour go! I do enjoy a hot chocolate before bed, a routine I've had for awhile, Ovaltine Light Break is what I enjoy and that certainly helps!
It's about finding a new normal and being comfortable with it and rolling along.
Wishing you all the best for treatment and a smooth ride on this roller coaster we are all on.
Sending you a virtual hug from Christine xx