Hi @Frenchbee,
I'm so sorry to hear of your BC and everything you have to face, I too am a girl who loves her own breasts, and feel that her breasts are the only thing that me feel like a woman and dear I even say it, sexy, So I truly appreciate how you are feeling, I was lucky in my very first round of this horrible disease, they 1st surgeon said no it will be a lumpectomy, I felt relived, but second time around, the new surgeon wanted to do a double mastectomy that I fought tooth and nail against, here in QLD under the public system they don't offer us chicks a reconstruction at time of breast removals, we have to wait for up to 3 years,
I too am in my early 50's, I'll be 52 this coming Dec, I guess I do not have any magic words to say in loosing your breasts, but just know I feel your pain and totally get it when you say you love your breasts, cause I love mine too. I did see an FX artists (special effects artists), do a die cast mould of her friends torso covering her breasts before she went into surgery to have her double mastectomy, as a way to remember and acknowledge her breast - the result was like those beautiful sculptures
here is her link
https://www.wowfx.com.au/projects/breastcast--pre-mastectomy-2024(if you have any questions please feel free to get in contact with Danielle and book your session for a pre or post surgery breastcast in Melbourne.)
I just copied this from the website on her page. I'm not to sure where you are based?I totally understand if this is too soon and too confrontational for you,
But this could also be something to think about and could be a personal way of saying good bye to your breasts, "gosh even I'm now crying just typing that ::neutral:" & the start of a healing process for you maybe? xx
Since my breast cancer journey, I've been seeing a phycologist from the cancer council here in Brisbane, its been a hell of a messy and angry journey, but it helps. another avenue to consider when the time is right for you.
Thinking of you, and sending love to you as you make your way through this part of your story.
You have found the right place to land when needing to vent, talk, or ask questions, this forum is very good at all of that :smile: