Thanks for your comments ladies. I am not sure how to ‘swing’ back to public from private. I am very grateful that I do not need chemotherapy or radiotherapy but I think the realization of what I have been through has just started settling in these last 2 days and the tears are quite free flowing again. I do see a counselor this Saturday and I’m hoping she is helpful for me.
My expander is uncomfortable and moving around, the public breast care nurse I messaged to see if she would see me, did see me, she had a feel and said ‘well of course they are uncomfortable and yours is all puckered and needs filling up’. I just felt like I should know this and how could I be so stupid not knowing this, thing is, if no one tells you these things, how do you know??? Same as with my plastic surgeon, she told me that I have to wait 6 weeks from my last tissue expander until I can have implants, again until she had said it, no one had ever mentioned it. I feel so useless and unsupported and unsure of everything and my memory is shocking and apparently that’s because I’ve had 2 general anaethetics close together and it will take 1-3 months to recover. Support of any kind right now would be lovely. Thank goodness for been able to remain anonymous on here and be able to say how you feel. X