Hi @Helen40
Welcome to the forum lovely. What a shit fight roller coaster you've been on. Is there any chance you can swing yourself back to public? At least that would take care of the $$ bit until covid buggers off. You might be eligible for patient transport funding as well. You'd also get access to the breast care nurses and you might find that you will get a lot of support from the other staff. I work in the surgical ward (admin) and that's where I went for my theatre. Once I got over the fact that half the ward had seen my boobs :neutral: I really would not want to have been anywhere else. Even then I had a major meltdown on the second morning (quite common after any major surgery apparently) Plus they had computer issues so I was able to hop out of bed and fix that while I was there lol.
Anaesthesia and I don't mix well also. Violent vomiting and low blood pressure for 24hrs. Have a chat to anaesthetics and they might be albe to tweak the recipe. They did that on my return surgery and it was far better.
This whole thing certainly tests you to the max, it's undignified and most definitely includes a lot of pain. I've had a return weird lesion that's required multiple biopsies and another surgery. Eventually I found it a case of having to go full zombie mode for the most part and just go "somewhere else".
If it's any consolation (which I know it isn't) once you get through this mess there's not too much you can't handle in the future.
Hoping it all settles down a bit for you quickly xoxoxo