Hello @Helen40
Sounds like you’ve been through quite a lot you poor thing. I think in some way you choosing to have the implants was a blessing, as you found the cancer early. But I completely understand the aversion to surgery. Completely. I was in a similar situation, had to go back to have the nipple removed for DCIS after a nipple sparing double mastectomy. On the prep table I got a slight fever, was sent off to do a covid test and surgery was postponed another 2 weeks. I didn’t go to that one though cos I had anxiety as I didn’t trust the surgeon anymore. So I changed surgeons, had radiation on both breasts and am now healing so I can have the nipple removed during my exchange surgery. When the surgeon called to book a date I almost vomited. I decided I need to allow my body, mind and soul to recover before I go back for more. Your situation is more complicated as you need to go back to work, plus have the skin surgery to go as well. I think it’s important for you to have regular body and mind healing sessions. Whether through yoga, mediation, qigong, massages, baths, spa treatments etc, but give yourself some pampering and relaxation because it sounds like you are in dire need of it. All of us on this forum are I think. Don’t wait till the whole cancer thing is over to do it. It’s important to start healing now. Also, get yourself a free Mental Health Plan through your GP if you can. I’ve seen a psychologist a few times and it’s helped immensely. I saw a new one just yesterday and already feel better.
Wishing you the best and hoping things ease up very soon 🍀🤗.
Mon Xxx