Hello @Olivegreen. I certainly do understand your feelings. Sitting at yet another BreastScreen appointment and seeing all the other ladies being sent off to the right and then I was sent off to an office on the left .... WTF (sorry) ? Yep, I was the unlucky one.
I too had DCIS, high grade and extensive, and mastectomy was the only option given to me. I did not know at the time that DIEP existed and I did not know that my surgeon did not do any reconstructions. Mind you, as it is now almost nine years later he must have managed to get the beast out.
Go with the flow of emotions, let the tears or anger out, no use holding it in. Take things one day at a time, don't get ahead of yourself.
Have you been offered reconstruction ?
Thinking of you. 💖💖