Hi,
I’m sure you’ve had lots of great advice- haven’t read every message- but I wanted to support you in being a health professional, trying to deal with your own health issue- when it’s your job to help others through theirs. Surreal, right?
I’m a gynaecologist and often see women with cancer- so have tried to reframe ( as your lot say) to see that I’m so lucky to be in a position of knowledge and power. Just about everyone says that the diagnosis hits them like a train. I was okay with it- sort of knew what to expect and found the surgery side pretty straightforward.
So, I hope for you, you can find your training and knowledge kicks in and helps your mind when it needs to; you may even have time for mindfulness meditations while taking a post- op break, as I have. You are blessed to have that background and training.
But saying that- talk to a psychologist if you have a chance as it’s so helpful.
I really liked Charlotte Totman’s podcasts too.
All the best and I hope the next stages go as well as can be for you.