Has anyone been on a trial ?

@fairydust You know what? after 6yrs personally and been through it twice, I absolutely hear you!!! You have EVERY right to feel its enough, the thought of another year and especially as youve just finished a tumultuous year already. It does get overwhelming, and I'm certain every single one of us on here feel that at some point or another. So just wanted to say I get it! I think the flip side of how I've gotten through when too feeling that way is I just broke it down and didnt look at the whole thing. Its the only way I could have tackled my path. I think once we vent, get it all out and not hold onto it, we're able to think through it better. I know I did, and then I'd be calm enough to tackle the next thing. 

Biggest thing I learnt the past 6yrs is,  all of the treatments I could not have done it for anyone else....if I could not do it for me alone.  It had to be for me and because I wanted it. Thats where my drive and determination came from..because it was about me nobody else...so I send you a big hug and just say to be kind to you and acknowledge how you feel knowing its OK and then you will tackle it no worries I believe. Hugs Melinda xo