Oh my dear, my deepest sympathy on the loss of your mum.
I was diagnosed 18 months ago, and was lucky enough to have my mum for moral support until just before Christmas. She was 96, she had a brilliant life and she slipped away quietly and peacefully in her own bed. Whilst I still haven't got used to the idea that she's not here, in many ways she still is.
Search for her in your head, she's there - all those little things you shared and told each other, all still there. People tell me now I am like my mum - I like to think that's her coming through.
This site is a true saviour, girls are just lovely and SO supportive. I wish you the very best in your treatment.
Travel through the grief at the pace your own heart wants, eventually the sadness will be replaced with loving memories. I am not sure how long it takes, I haven;t got there yet.
much love
magicmum