No worries, you have certainly come to the right place. I am one of the very lucky ones I only had DCIS (not invasive) and as a result needed to have a mastectomy as the area was large in comparison to breast size. I have a family history so opted for a bilateral with reconstruction. I was diagnosed in May 2012 and have completed all of my surgeries and have no regrets with my decisions. I was 40 when diagnosed with a hubby and two small children but was lucky enough to have my mum during the process. I can't imagine what you must be going through dealing with this crappy diagnosis and grieving the loss of and not having your mum with you.
You will find this site to be your saviour so many times throughout your journey as you can ask what you want and vent whenever you want without fear of being judged and with the knowledge that so many women on here know exactly what you are going through. I gained so much valuable advice from here I don't know where to begin. The most valuable other than the support is the advice from women who have already walked the path and have taken the time to document what was helpful. Especially for hospital, what to expect and what to take.
I wish you all the very best with your journey and visit the site as much as you need. During my treatment I was on here daily even several times a day. It really helps to talk to people who can relate and to read other ladies stories. Now a days I try to live in the moment and keep myself really busy so don't visit as often. Although tonight I received a message which brought me to your post.
You will find the strength you need, surprise yourself and make so many people proud throughout your journey. It seems impossible in the beginning but just take one day or step at a time, listen to your doctors without fear of questioning and most importantly listen to your body and rest when you need it. Now is the time for you to look after yourself you deserve it.
Love and healing hugs
Lara xx