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thank you so much guys for all your advice and support, in the end I am the only one that can sort this mess out. I am hanging in there. I just don't have the strength to fight him at the moment. My way of coping is to stay out of his way, that works. I go on my lap top and just shut him out. I also go to bed and watch my favourite TV shows like Dexter for the millionth time, not sure what it is about Dexter but I love it. MMM maybe I am sure what I love about Dexter. LOL

The good thing is I am over my chemo treatment. I'm having another operation in 2.5 weeks time and then start Radiation Therapy after that.

I am hoping to start back at gym next week as that helps me heaps to focus and get my thoughts back on track.

It's really funny last nite he was being so caring and taking my temp for me as I was not feeling the best and did end up not  going back to work that evening.

I swear it would be easier to deal with if he was nasty 24/7 at least I would know where I stood all the time. But this one minute nice and one minute nasty is the hardest to handle.

Unfortunately I don't have family that are able to help, my parents are old and don't live close by as for my siblings they haven't even acknowledged that I have cancer which is upsetting.

All my friends and work colleagues say I they can't believe how strong I am and how much I am doing while going through this, working, exercising, looking after the family still.