Hey Angie - I understand exactly what you are saying... But you know you are never alone if you are on this site - this is a safe place to share your fears your triumphs and seek advice.
I am sure there are many women who feel like you - I know i do - there is a lot to be said for sharing with someone who truly understands - unless you have been where we are it is hard to comprehend what it feels like - the sense of panic at annual check ups - or feeling paranoid about every unusual ache that you have...
I know that i have had ongoing issues with my shoulders and i have this bizarre pain in my collar bone...
I suspect for me that alot of it is directly related to the change in posture during mastectomy/recon process and i am hoping it will settle. I have found that physio has helped enormously with the shoulder...
If you are unsure get it checked again, or perhaps talk to your GP about your concerns - you need to be able to put your mind at rest. This site is a great place to get things off your chest if you need to give your loved ones a break.
There is also a pilates DVD available through your Breast care nurse which may help too...'
Sending big hugs
Chris