I know how you feel. My Mum was diagnosed 16 years ago and has had two lots of BC plus more recently Bowel and Secondary BC - unfortunately for her she is now in the maintenance stage of the disease. She also did not have Chemo during her initial BC and would do anything for me if she could. She lives 400km away but cannot travel due to her illness. It is so wonderful to have loving parents but now you have that extra special bond with your Mum (unfortunately it is BC), but it is really great being able to talk to someone who knows exactly what you are going through. I think that my diagnosis of BC hit my Mum harder than me, especially when it came out of the blue and is Stage 3. I wish you all the best in your treatment. Sue