my partner left me for his massage therapist

Sorry to hear that your partner left you, and his timing really suxed too! It is good that you are seeking the professional help that you need. I know you do not believe me now, but in time, with the right support you will move on from his betrayal and from cancer and you will come out the other side stronger than you ever imagined possible. As you profile name suggests use your creative energy to do something that you enjoy doing. Just baby steps, one step at a time, one day at a time. Your therapist is more qualified to advise you of this than me, I just know that your confidence would have taken a hit with the mastecomy and him leaving would have dented it more. You will meet lots of wonderful people to share your cancer journey with, they may not be your life partner, but I am sure they will show you the respect and compassion you deserve. Tanya