I would like to connect with other carers....
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Tonight, Friday night I am alone with our dog as my partner is asleep after Chemo today. It was the 3rd Praxitaxil after the 4 AC. She is getting weaker, white cell count dropping, hemoglobin dropping and now a temperature we are monitoring.
Not having been down this path before it is hard to know what is 'normal' chemo side effects and what is worrying. To watch someone you love who was healthy and well but found a lump, to be made to feel and look like someone who is dying is so hard and upsetting. We are told to trust the process, trust the treatment... it is so counter intuitive though don't you think, putting toxic chemicals into the body and take it to the brink ....but what else is there? Sometimes I wonder if this is the right path to choose, is there an alternative but I don't think there is I think I need to trust western medicine on this one. Its the best we've got for treating cancer thus far.
I am upbeat most of the time and manage holding our lives together and do everything but sometimes I find it so all consuming I just want to cry and scream and say 'I want my old life back'. I guess I'm not alone in all of this.
Thanks for listening people
Tonight, Friday night I am alone with our dog as my partner is asleep after Chemo today. It was the 3rd Praxitaxil after the 4 AC. She is getting weaker, white cell count dropping, hemoglobin dropping and now a temperature we are monitoring.
Not having been down this path before it is hard to know what is 'normal' chemo side effects and what is worrying. To watch someone you love who was healthy and well but found a lump, to be made to feel and look like someone who is dying is so hard and upsetting. We are told to trust the process, trust the treatment... it is so counter intuitive though don't you think, putting toxic chemicals into the body and take it to the brink ....but what else is there? Sometimes I wonder if this is the right path to choose, is there an alternative but I don't think there is I think I need to trust western medicine on this one. Its the best we've got for treating cancer thus far.
I am upbeat most of the time and manage holding our lives together and do everything but sometimes I find it so all consuming I just want to cry and scream and say 'I want my old life back'. I guess I'm not alone in all of this.
Thanks for listening people