I am so sorry to hear your story. I was feeling quite deppressed this morning and quite selfish for feeling so, then I read your blog. I feel for you so much. We need support at this time and to have our cancer and how we are feeling minimised in such a way would not validate us at all. I would suggest that you try to take a step back from what your partner is saying to you. Try to focus on you and let him deal with his issues. You have a lot on your plate at the moment and if you cant get help from elsewhere you need to give it to yourself. Come on here whenever you are feeling alone because you very deffinitely are not alone. We are all here to help you with how you are feeling and give you the support that you need. Things will get better for you. I dont belive we are ever in this darkish place for too long there is always light at the end of the tunnel louise and we on this site will provide that for you till you no longer need it. Take care and let me know how you are going please. Hugs to you and good thoughts XX Viv