Sounds like you know exactly how I have been feeling. Yes, who fairly wouldn't expect us to change a little as we get used to all the physical & emotional changes we & our bodies are going thro. You expect that those who love you will understand that, & also that its not always going to be that way & keep the faith with us that things will get better. I have been in contact with my ex's children's mother via Facebook, & she doesn't mind me contacting from time to time to see how they are. I've actually just posted the eldest one a card & small gift for her 13th birthday. This had been a nice way of staying in touch without involving my ex, even tho I'm sure he wouldn't mind. I just don't want to step on the toes of his new relationship, so to speak.