Feeling alone & overwhelmed

Wow, so much has happened to you recently. I too was 42 when first diagnosed, way back in 1998. I too had husband leave me ( it was sort of on the cards before diagnosis, but the BC was a catalyst and I DID change emotionally and coming to terms with physical changes, after drug regime due to flushes and strange thinking, also dryness and lack of libido ..etc etc..Who would not change. ! ?? ! LOL ..Well done to have come this far and to have support from your family. It is a HUGE adjustment and the journey is emotional and physical, plus there are financial concerns understandably..regarding work, and others, like day to day stuff.. etc.  ) I also had a depressive episode and felt I could not go on, and eventaully saw a pysch profesional and took, still take, a low dose antidepressant. It  also helps with some pain and discomfort too, which when I feel that, makes me start thinking of the pain and not able to do much else, therefore spiral down again. Life is too short to be miserable. Keep searching for what YOU need for you to get through this and beyond. Seeking support from doctor, BC nurse,family, friends.. is ok and even encouraged. It can be a hard slog on your own, even though each journey is individual.  The loss of the children of your ex partner you grew to love, must be hard too. Can you write them a letter and tell them if they want to contact you in future, then here is your number? They may be feeling the loss also?

 I too have LOVED and lost. Letting go is hard. But, you cannot force people to like you, let alone Love you.

 All the best.. Kathy. OOXX