I know this is a difficult time for you and breast cancer is completely sucky. Your ex sounds disgusting and a good thing he has gone. It's great you are getting psychiatric help and have a wonderful supporting family. I know its my faith in God and my family and friends that have made this journey bearable. I hope that you will find the help you need to get back on track and don't let that disgusting low life cloud it for you forever. Grieve for a time but try and bounce back. I have loved the support group I joined and have found connecting with people my age with breast cancer very encouraging. What is really great is the determination we all have in making the most of life and not letting the bc take control. There is no "woe is me attitude" even the ones with secondary cancers. Try and find another job and give yourself a fresh start with good challenges if you can. I know when I had ex boyfriends- the ones I didn't have to connect with regularly where much easier to get over. You are a survivor. You are in good company. THere are plenty of people on this site for you to connect with. Try and find a support group to join and look at this time as an opportunity for a fresh start. Grieve, eat chocolate but then start to live. Go for long walks in beautiful places.
I have a blog if you are interested
myjourneyupdate.wordpress.com
All the best to you.
Julie