This is an awesome network @melclarity @"Soldier Crab" @primek thanks jfor pointing Di in the right direction.
Di I have just joined you up. We have lots of members who have had successful delayed reconstructions (myself included.)
Your feelings are completely normal after not having to worry about surgery etc for 4 years.
I have had the surgery you are thinking of having and whilst it is a huge operation it is not an uncommon one and many (almost all)ladies have successful surgeries. The first few weeks are tough but if you can get yourself nice and fit preop you will bounce back well. I am 3 1/2 years post reconstruction and my surgery was 2 1/2 years post mastectomy.
hugs to you.
Paula xx