I have a feeling the easy bit is over

Thank you so much ladies, for all your comforting comments.  I have decided to get my hair cut short before the chemo takes it.  I like the concept of it being my choice.  Something that I can control in a world where I suddenly feel like I have so little control over my own body.  
Tomorrow I am going for an orientation session at the hospital, before starting chemo on Thursday.  After the visit tomorrow, one of my darling friends is taking me to her hairdresser to have my hair cut very short. It's going to be very hard and I know there will be lots of tears but I really think it's for the best. Tomorrow morning I will clean my hair brushes and pack them away with my hairclips, until they are needed again.  
I think that when the chemo kicks in and what's left of my hair starts to go, it will less traumatic than leaving my hair as it is now,
The one consolation I have is that my 3 cats love to share their fur and I long ago gave up trying to keep it off my clothes, so now, although I may have no hair of my own for awhile, I will have hair with me wherever I go, even if it's just cat hair!  :)

Thanks again for giving me support and comfort.  It really does make a difference to be able to connect with women who appreciate how I feel on this, most unwelcome of journeys.