I have a feeling the easy bit is over

Thanks for your reply Jenny.  

 I feel a bit silly being so emotional about such a vanity as hair but the thought of saying goodbye to it makes me cry every time I think about it.  
I think I probably should cut it before it falls out.  Maybe the least traumatic of my options.  

I'm really glad to hear that you are on the other side of chemo now. It's very comforting to know there is 'the other side' to all this.  I've had so much information thrown at me in such a short space of time.  

I think too that up until now, it hasn't quite felt real.  Yes, I've just had three surgeries but I've been in hospital and had surgeries before, so that's not really a new experience for me.  At the moment, I'm bruised and sore but I don't feel or look sick.  I know once I have that first chemo treatment, all that will change pretty quickly.  I have a colleague who has recently finished her chemo and she told me that once she started chemo, she couldn't hide her cancer from anyone.  Her appearance immediately gave her away, even on the days she didn't feel so bad.  That will be hard.  Seeing my condition reflected back to me in the looks on people's faces.  

i totally agree with you.  This is a club no one wants to join.  Although, I suspect it is a club that will give as much as it takes.  I know I won't be the same person at the end of my cancer journey but I am hoping I will be a better one. :)  xx