Can't be bothered with a new boob

Arghh I was diagnosed just over 2 weeks ago and decided, after loads of obsessive thinking, to have a mastectomy and no reconstruction. I think my sexuality is very connected to my breasts but the thought of having a breast with no feelings is just not so attractive. I am 53 and have a great boyfriend who is being very supportive of my decision. I keep trying to imagine what it is going to be like, very strange after all these years of  two breasts . I am going to hospital tomorrow morning my doctor felt I could be home Thursday night but a friend who has been through breast cancer gave me the wise advice to make no plans, try not to expect too much and just go through it. I am trying hard to follow these words, they seem pretty wise to me. It is great to read other peoples stories in this group it makes me feel not so isolated. Loads of tips too,  thanks Adal