Hi Kel,
I would almost be positive in saying that all on here know exactly how you are feeling at the moment. So just know that even at times when you feel alone you will never be on here.
Once your surgery is done & you know in which direction your reconstruction will go I am sure you will feel better within yourself & the decisions will come easier.
I had a right mastectomy in May & am currently undergoing chemo & will have radiation in January. I am looking into reconstruction along the tram/DIEP pathway & as Mich said above join the Breast Reconstruction group as it is very helpful.
Wishing you all the best & take care of yourself Carolyn xx