Joking! I can sympathise with the emotional roller coaster, and the fact that a rush of tears can appear from no where, or plain, no emotions where you expect to be elated at the finish of a particular stage. There is only one you, and we all react differently. I congratulate that one year time for you, and it is such an achievement in my eyes, for you to look at 2 breasts that are now in their completed stage. I do understand the feeling of sadness, as all would, because no-one wants to lose any part of their body and have it replaced. (said with kindness). Oh, and I have been advised lately to remove the word SHOULD from my vocabulary, thats a hint....... you will feel better as time goes by, and in years to come, like all of us, look back and say "What a character builder!" (said with humour, not intended to be blaze) Belxx