I think the first "anniversary"is the hardest.It brings it all back and really,your emotions are still fairly raw.You've had alot of surgery done on you in one year so give yourself time.I've had breast cancer twice and each time,it took me about 2 years to feel ok about myself and get confidence back in my health. It is a grieving process you go through when you lose your breasts.There is a sadness we feel during intimacy cos we've lost an enjoyable part of it. We have to make so many trade offs in order to live don't we.I'm lopsided but at least I have one breast that functions normally.But my chest is not for show- can't wear low necklines and I have the worry of annual mammograms on the remaining breast. I'd like to say to you congrats on reaching 1 year but I understand how you can feel "blah". You are not selfish,just honest about your feelings and you maybe"lucky"in the cancer world but it is still a HUGE sacrifice to lose your breasts.You have every right to vent and grieve -your pink sisters truly understand. Tonya xx