Introduction
This is really hard for me as I am not even on facebook, so here goes.
My name is Leisa Hehir I am 35 years old and 28 weeks pregnant with a beautiful gift that my husband, myself and 9 year old son would never have thought possible. I was diagnosed with Secondry Breast Cancer on my lungs a week and a half ago and had my first round of chemo Thursday. Here we go again!
I was first diagnosed with Breast Cancer back in June 2009 upon a visit to my doctor to confirm I was pregnant. Needless to say that wasn't all that was confirmed and unfortunatley was a non event. I underwent 2 lots of surgery 6 rounds of chemo and 30 rounds of radiation. after 7 months I was given the all clear and life pretty much returned to normal.
That was until September 2012 when I had just had a routine Mamogram and Ultra sound all coming back clear and a request to my specialist if we could possibly try to have that second child we so dearly wanted. He gave us his blessing and sent me for a MRI (just to make sure). There were 2 more nodes found in my chest wall (unhealthy looking) from the origonal diagnosis that were missed (they think). More surgery and another 28 rounds of Radiation and Zolodex injections (gotta love premature manopause twice!). We were told all should be ok now if you wish to try again for another baby, sweet!
5 months later the most awesome news that we were going to have a baby. Pretty much at that time I developed a dry annoying, niggling cough that just wouldn't go away and an extreme shortness of breath worse than what is normal during pregnancy. I knew it wasn't right. I finally convinced my doctor for a chest x-ray and they thought it was just a mild case of phenomnia. Puffers and 2 lots of anti-biotics didn't fix it. Then it was thought I might have Whooping Cough more puffers and antibiotics. With frustration at an all time high as nothing was working and no body in our house was getting any sleep and evey was over listening to my coughing I requested a CT of my chest only to be knocked back because I was 26 weeks pregnant. So I had another chest x-ray which obviously showed something as they then allowed me to have a CT.
My worst fears were confirmed. Wow what do I do now? What about the baby? The chapter of my life that involved cancer was meant to be over and done with.
I have no idea what to do, what to say, what to feel, I have no idea about anything anymore. The first time I was diagnosed I was (I thought & tried) so strong and didn't get involved in any support groups as I worked the whole way through and once I had had the treatemnt that was it I was done with Cancer. But this time I think I am gonna need something. Just to read and listen to other peoples stories in the Hopes and Hurdles Information Guide is such a comfort to know I am not alone. It has really been an awesome resource. Thank you to the BCNA and the wonderful people who created and contributed to it.
Well that's my story. I have contemplated deleting it about 20 times since I started typing, thinking I have given way too much information and that no one is going to be interested in my waffleing on. But you know what I actually feel better just for typing it. So even if no one was to read it that's ok I have achived something from posting it anyway. Good luck and bless you all what ever your journey. (please ignor spelling)
Leisa xo
