Goodbye to all and thank you
dear ladies,
I'm leaving the group and wish to thank all that's helped me in the last two years, especially Ann Marie who's made me feel so welcome. It's been a long journey and I've simply had enough. Breast cancer twice in 9 years and then waiting 2 years for the reconstruction that's just turned out to be devastating. I was so excited to start with the TRAM flap and thought the pain was going to be worth it. Barely a month went by and my right side bulged , my foob was 3 inches higher then my natural breast. In hospital over Xmas having IV antibiotics for Cellulitis and infections on every surgical incision. My bulge is quite big now but not a hernia , so no operation to fix it and I just have to put up with the pain. I could wear a tight girdle for support but it's too hot ! Three attempts later for symmetry and no success , just out of pocket more money. Had enough from this Dr as he wasn't interested in correcting his mistakes. Said I wasn't a Hooters worker so be happy with what I had ! He showed me photos of other women and they all looked sensational . He said I'd have a flat tummy and two pert new breasts - what a fool I was to believe him. Very hard to get another ps to see me and nearly impossible to get one who could help. After 2 attempts with another ps and yet more money I'm done. Breast is still bigger and obvious even in clothes but at least it faces the front now. We're $15,500 out of pocket for reconstruction and simply can't afford any more and I can't face any more surgery - had enough pain. I get really down when I see such wonderful photos of other ladies gorgeous results and that makes me feel awful . I'm happy that they have such wonderful new breasts but at the same time it makes mine look even worse and then I feel guilty for thinking that. So I've decided to leave and that's that. My area between my neck and hips doesn't exist anymore and I don't feel like a woman or sexy . As for swimming , I do that at home only and cover up when out. So once again thank you to every one I've conversed with . I wish you all success . Sorry this is long and I apologise if I offend anyone. Bep xx
I'm leaving the group and wish to thank all that's helped me in the last two years, especially Ann Marie who's made me feel so welcome. It's been a long journey and I've simply had enough. Breast cancer twice in 9 years and then waiting 2 years for the reconstruction that's just turned out to be devastating. I was so excited to start with the TRAM flap and thought the pain was going to be worth it. Barely a month went by and my right side bulged , my foob was 3 inches higher then my natural breast. In hospital over Xmas having IV antibiotics for Cellulitis and infections on every surgical incision. My bulge is quite big now but not a hernia , so no operation to fix it and I just have to put up with the pain. I could wear a tight girdle for support but it's too hot ! Three attempts later for symmetry and no success , just out of pocket more money. Had enough from this Dr as he wasn't interested in correcting his mistakes. Said I wasn't a Hooters worker so be happy with what I had ! He showed me photos of other women and they all looked sensational . He said I'd have a flat tummy and two pert new breasts - what a fool I was to believe him. Very hard to get another ps to see me and nearly impossible to get one who could help. After 2 attempts with another ps and yet more money I'm done. Breast is still bigger and obvious even in clothes but at least it faces the front now. We're $15,500 out of pocket for reconstruction and simply can't afford any more and I can't face any more surgery - had enough pain. I get really down when I see such wonderful photos of other ladies gorgeous results and that makes me feel awful . I'm happy that they have such wonderful new breasts but at the same time it makes mine look even worse and then I feel guilty for thinking that. So I've decided to leave and that's that. My area between my neck and hips doesn't exist anymore and I don't feel like a woman or sexy . As for swimming , I do that at home only and cover up when out. So once again thank you to every one I've conversed with . I wish you all success . Sorry this is long and I apologise if I offend anyone. Bep xx
