When my mum was diagnosed with triple-negative breast cancer in
July 2022, she insisted on genetic testing despite it not being deemed
essential, given her age and family history. After learning of her PALB2
mutation diagnosis in December 2022, I discovered I had a 50/50 chance of
inheriting it, so I immediately began testing. By June 2023, I learned I’d
inherited the mutation, which puts me at a 60% risk of developing breast
cancer, along with higher risks of pancreatic and ovarian cancers - which I will
need to address when I hit menopause.
The second half of 2023 was a whirlwind of counselling
appointments, CT and MRI scans, and consultations with surgeons and nurses to
determine the best preventive options. With my dedicated (public) medical
team’s support, I chose to undergo a prophylactic mastectomy. I was officially
put on the surgery waitlist in December 2023, advised that as a “high-risk”
patient, I could expect a surgery date in 12-18 months, with only 2-8 weeks’
notice period.
Now, a full year into this wait with no surgery date in sight, I
feel stuck in limbo, constantly hoping I don’t develop cancer while I wait for
a chance to prevent it. It’s difficult to plan around this indefinite pause,
knowing I’ll need to put my life on hold at short notice. This uncertainty adds
stress to my personal and professional life, as well as to events that should
be joyful milestones.
A shorter wait would give me back control over my health, my life,
and my future. It’s frustrating that bureaucracy creates this delay. Being
labelled “high-risk” and asked to wait 18 months affects every part of my life
– mentally and physically. My breasts feel like a ticking time bomb, and I’m
powerless to disarm it. Addressing the risk sooner would also lessen my fear of
developing cancer.
While the wait has been long and frustrating, the support from the
team at Royal Melbourne Hospital has been remarkable. Their dedication and
compassion have been a lifeline. Talking to them, it’s clear they feel the
strain of these wait times too – it must be hard to see patients in need and
feel unable to help sooner.
I’m choosing a prophylactic mastectomy because I know that annual
testing would leave me constantly wondering, “Is this the year?” I’ve ruled out
medication for personal reasons. My goal is to avoid breast cancer, period. I
don’t want to face chemotherapy or radiation or to see my body and spirit
battle through that fight. Nor do I want my friends and family to go through
that worry. Given the choice, I’d take a preventive mastectomy every time over
a 60% risk of breast cancer. I’m ready to take control of my future—when will
the system be ready to let me?
Can you relate to Madeline’s story? Let us know in the comments if
you’ve experienced similar feelings while waiting for your prophylactic
mastectomy.