Can not believe it.
Shock, denial, anger - cant imagine how I can move towards acceptance. Newly Dx. Initially was stage 2, then told stage 3 and now looking at stage 4 with lung mets. What the! This roller coaster is insane and I want to get off. Found a lump 8 weeks ago, took a month to get into my rural GP, another 2 week wait for scans and a further possible month wait after this for biopsy (apparently). So instead spent a fortune flying myself to Sydney to the one stop shop at Sydney Breast clinic (they were amazing) scans, biopsies, pathology all on the same day with lovely nurses, surgeons and Breast GPs to consult with as well. Got the bad news of lymph node involvement that day (what a horrible trip home finding trains and sitting in the airport alone with this news). 4 days later with core biopsy results apparently better news of - Gd 1 slow growing highly hormone receptive and HER 2-ve Ca. Staging scans the next week, another week to get into the breast surgeon. Feeling good and starting to get my head around Mastectomy and some Hormone therapy and maybe some radiotherapy. Then the bad starts flowing again not stage 2 now looking at stage 3 with potential Mets in lungs - What!. So Surreal when one is so fit and healthy. Now another 2 weeks wait and long distance travel to have more invasive investigations to confirm or discount this scary stage 4 Dx. On top of this had to go cold turkey off my HRT so everything aches, I cant sleep, I cant breath and the emotions are all over the shop and the anxiety is making this all 10x worse. Meanwhile I am trying to continue work and family life as normal!? So unfair when I have finally got to a place in my life, happy in my newly set up little business, kids almost off doing there own thing and life was finally looking like I could start having some me time. I did everything right - regular and recent mammograms and health checks all good, but somehow this little nasty thing just some how snuck under the radar. Well damn! Deb