oh my gosh!! so glad i came back to this group, this was me!!!! just feeling absolute non joy.....i tried a mental health nurse (Who was lovely) but didn't really fix me, and then i was at the point where i thought okay i need to see the dr and get onto some anti depressants......(as much as i also didn't want to do that)
Then we went on a holiday, 2 weeks in vietnam, one week literally lying by the pool in hoi an, we met a great couple that had gone through the same last year, (Though she had chemo as well) and just the chance to chat and know that they got it...I came back and started really enjoying work again, and cut myself more slack, who cares if i don't have a spotless house, not me, we have a cleaner but we only get her for 2 hours a week so my house isn't shiny if you know what i mean, but our floors and girls bathroom is done weekly. The last few weeks I have been pysching myself up to rejoin a fitness program.... We stopped again while on holidays and i literally do no exercise.
The endo dr for graves tested me for celiac, but that came back clear. So i saw a dietician re my icky feeling and have given up normal milk so i only have lactose free now, and i am taking a probiotic not sure which worked but finally after almost a whole year of feeling icky every single morning, now i only have occasional days. imagine how much better that feels. Also saw a physio as i was getting a sore back (From being so lazy) omg that killed but he gave me some stretches to do and that has helped heaps too. Had a pap smear finally that i had put off for years and got the all clear on that.
My only main concern now is i literally can't see a future future anymore, like i am sure i used to make plans like lets move to the beach when we are old. and even in joyful moments, i have a vague feeling of dread, like something bads going to happen. I have signed up for something through cancer council about exercise as well. I have done the first survey part and there is a longer call this week. (Husband was kinda bugging me to do something but i needed it to be my choice, yes i can be slightly pig headed.)
