Year 4 done and dusted woot woot !!!
Soooooooooooo...Halloween was my 4th year anniversary NED!!!!! (A bit of a late post I know) One more year and I get to be on the official stats :wink: Finally, after seeing my BS the ot...
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Interesting @kamada. I’m not done with my bc trip yet, but I’ve been living as if I have and have also felt restless lately. I came up with the same reasons that you did for it.
I also thought, I might be scared of having the final surgery as that would mean the end of the constant appointments with specialists and being ‘looked after’, and basically being left on my own again to resume a life I wasn’t (so) happy with previously. I guess I thought after ‘surviving’ this nightmare, the things I was unhappy about before would magically be fixed. And realising that they aren’t. The specialists fixed my cancer, I have to fix what probably caused it. And that’s quite a scary thought.
But as my psychologist reminded me, I’m a fighter, and I will continue to fight for a better life. That, according to me now, means renewing my love for myself and taking serious action to change situations I’m not happy with, move if I want to, buy and use special things for myself, have a hobby I love, deal with things differently, eliminate unnecessary guilt etc., and just enjoy being 🙂.
Here’s hoping it goes according to plan 🤞😊
Here’s hoping it goes according to plan 🤞😊