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The tears are driving me mad
Hello i am 4 year survivor and have been on tamoxifen the four years. i am fed up with flushes, feeling like utter crap, NO libido (can’t remember what intimacy with my husband feels like) mood swin...
I agree with kezmusc saying - I only do this for my family; left to myself it would be a ‘resounding hell no’. I haven’t started tamoxifen yet ( next week apparently) but I am already contemplating the next round of chemo (such a positive person!) and knowing that only for the love of my children would I go through that again. Also, facing lung damage from radiation because I have a lymph gland up on my internal mammary chain and the radiation has to try and cover that because it can’t be surgically removed. Seems like chemo didn’t work too well.
So, we put ourselves through all this to be here for those who love us, but probably wouldn’t if we only lived for ourselves. Not at all looking forward to the tamoxifen that is coming.