The Secret Suckiness Of Life After Breast Cancer
https://www.refinery29.com/en-us/2017/10/176194/life-after-breast-cancer-survivor-story?
Forum Discussion
Ladies thank god for this wonderful website! I hear you all and empathise. I hate myself at moment as I have taken to feel like I am not even of this world anymore. Sad but true I don't know who I am anymore and cant find what I want to do or feel like doing to make me happy. "If that's at all possible now"
I Pinterest every week to find ideas to do that I might get inspired to or maybe can physically do, I search websites for inspiration I look into the past for happy times its a dreadful thing at my age (71) to not know where I fit anymore. I play indoor bowls when I am well enough & do craft with a group every week but I feel I cant talk about my post BC health with them as they seem to think Oh I thought you beat it? look so I decline or refrain from conversating with them.
I live with my daughter now so have lost a lot of independence. I still drive though wont give my car up. My marriage of 35 years ended on my diagnoses he couldn't handle the situation or it didn't fit into his lifestyle future. I also lost contact with two stepdaughters I reared for 35years which was hard. But here I go AGAIN! Looking into the past! How do we form a new future? I keep searching so that is a positive I suppose! Its when I give up is when I'm in trouble I suppose.
It's sometimes feels like being dead but not being buried. (Awful thing to say I know but tomorrow is another day, I suppose) I have even searched for BC Groups to meet up with women face to face in my area but closest one in too far for me to travel. We certainly need more face to face groups where we can talk to women in the same situation for our mental health & wellbeing! (Sanity)
I Pinterest every week to find ideas to do that I might get inspired to or maybe can physically do, I search websites for inspiration I look into the past for happy times its a dreadful thing at my age (71) to not know where I fit anymore. I play indoor bowls when I am well enough & do craft with a group every week but I feel I cant talk about my post BC health with them as they seem to think Oh I thought you beat it? look so I decline or refrain from conversating with them.
I live with my daughter now so have lost a lot of independence. I still drive though wont give my car up. My marriage of 35 years ended on my diagnoses he couldn't handle the situation or it didn't fit into his lifestyle future. I also lost contact with two stepdaughters I reared for 35years which was hard. But here I go AGAIN! Looking into the past! How do we form a new future? I keep searching so that is a positive I suppose! Its when I give up is when I'm in trouble I suppose.
It's sometimes feels like being dead but not being buried. (Awful thing to say I know but tomorrow is another day, I suppose) I have even searched for BC Groups to meet up with women face to face in my area but closest one in too far for me to travel. We certainly need more face to face groups where we can talk to women in the same situation for our mental health & wellbeing! (Sanity)