Hi @Molly71, we do seem to be at a similar stage don't we. I was Stage 3 triple positive.
Yes the simple statement of go and live life is really hard, I don't find it easy at all. I had counselling at the start when I was first diagnosed which was October 2021 then I stopped going and I now know I will have to go back again as I feel its time. There just seems to be too much going on in my head to deal with it all myself. I cry too and find it catches me off guard sometimes just when I think I am fine the tears start. I've gone back to a new job three days a week to basically try and boost my confidence and give me some feeling of normality but I'm not enjoying the work which doesn't make it easy. Neither does feeling absolutely exhausted by the end of the day! Some days it really is difficult to get up and get going. I had my mammo and ultrasound back in October last year and I was fine well I thought I was until I went in for the mammo and then I completely lost it so I can only imagine the anxiety if and when another scan will happen.
How wonderful you will have your family around for your birthday, that will give you others to focus on as you say and I am sure it will be such a good thing. It really is fuck cancer isn't it!
Thanks for reaching out and I wish you all the best as well xx
