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The last treatment and feeling cut loose and lost
I had my last treatment on the 30th of December which in my mind was supposed to be the happiest day after a long road with bc. I have to admit the lead up to that day I found so hard to handle, I was...
@Christabel03
I think you’ve nailed it - treatment can give you a wonderful sense of security. You are doing something positive, keeping cancer away. It’s also a regular schedule, a predictable path. Losing both can be very disorienting.
But the point of the treatment and the schedule was to resume normal living - with all its benefits but also all its uncertainties. I experienced that slightly lost feeling a few weeks before I finished treatment - not depressed, but not entirely sure who I was now. A few weeks with a good counsellor was immensely helpful. I just needed someone independent, not a friend or family member, to remind me that I wasn’t a label and I didn’t have to prove anything. I was to live, thrive and be happy. Sound simple, it can be harder than you imagine. Talking to a stranger can be very liberating. Best wishes.
I think you’ve nailed it - treatment can give you a wonderful sense of security. You are doing something positive, keeping cancer away. It’s also a regular schedule, a predictable path. Losing both can be very disorienting.
But the point of the treatment and the schedule was to resume normal living - with all its benefits but also all its uncertainties. I experienced that slightly lost feeling a few weeks before I finished treatment - not depressed, but not entirely sure who I was now. A few weeks with a good counsellor was immensely helpful. I just needed someone independent, not a friend or family member, to remind me that I wasn’t a label and I didn’t have to prove anything. I was to live, thrive and be happy. Sound simple, it can be harder than you imagine. Talking to a stranger can be very liberating. Best wishes.