@kmakm I think your husband is a lucky man to be married to such a strong, resilient women like you. Yes, you may be "different" than before but your heart & soul are still the same & that is why he married you & what he would love about you. It is hard to come to terms with the "new" us & many find it hard to accept the new Version 2. Dr Tottman herself was diagnosed with BC & to hear her speak about how she helps others with their torment & then to hear her story about her battle, was quite incredible. Here is a women that truly knows what we are going through as she is & has gone through it & has faced many a battle. That made what she said at the conference even more powerful as she is living proof that you can get over to the other side with the right help & mind-set. Be kind to yourself my dear & dont rush it. Know it is OK to feel shit & grief & resentment but also realise the strength you have & how you have helped so many of us on this forum. If we dont pick out some positives in this whole process, then we will all go MAD!!
I am doing great, thanks & i always considered myself to be one of the lucky ones as my diagnosis/treatment was so much easier than most of you. I am working, exercising (too much!) & for me, life is the same as it was before apart from a little scar under my boob. I am on no medication so its just a yearly mammo plus a few extra routine blood/health checks that have had to be added to the list.
We are all here for you & if i were you, I'd make regular visits to that new yoga centre for a stint in that super dooper massage chair!! take care xx