Totally get where you are saying, I'm not sure where I am at the moment, want to say everything is great, have had no real medical issues for about 12 months so technically I am cured!! but deep down I fear the recurrance will come back when I am I least expecting it and no one gets that, so I keep it to myself mostly.
I have taken the step of giving up my job to concentrate on having the best life i can, I finished on Friday and am currently in that mixed emotion state of this is great, this is scary, but think I really need to get on with life and try and start thinking positive, not what if.
If you need help seek it, I think thats some advice I need to take too.