Just feel like running away
Does anyone else just feel like running away. It's almost 2 months since I finished radiation, and getting close to 12 months since my diagnosis. I see my Breast Surgeon next week. I am grateful, and ...
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Hello to you @Molly71 absolutely yes. I am the first person to put my hand up and say since the end of active treatment I completely have lost my way. I feel like I have been set adrift without an anchor and I am just treading water trying to figure it all out. I am back to work a couple of days and back into swimming and yoga etc but it all feels like a band aid if I am honest.
I talk with other people about this and this part of the whole cancer journey and I feel like this is where it seems like you need the most support, but there doesn't seem to be that much. But this part is so hard to navigate because it is like being set free from the only security blanket you have know all through treatment. I also find that I seem to be putting pressure on myself to "do better" or "get it more together" because that is the general thought process of others, that the treatment is over so you must be ok. But I am really not ok and figuring out who I am now and actually processing the trauma of what the past 15 months has looked like for me is actually really damn hard. It's taking a lot of counselling and basically just trying to understand that this version of me is all I can be right now. They tell me it will get better and I do have hope it will.
I feel for you, I am sure there is many of us that know these feelings only too well. Please take care xx
I talk with other people about this and this part of the whole cancer journey and I feel like this is where it seems like you need the most support, but there doesn't seem to be that much. But this part is so hard to navigate because it is like being set free from the only security blanket you have know all through treatment. I also find that I seem to be putting pressure on myself to "do better" or "get it more together" because that is the general thought process of others, that the treatment is over so you must be ok. But I am really not ok and figuring out who I am now and actually processing the trauma of what the past 15 months has looked like for me is actually really damn hard. It's taking a lot of counselling and basically just trying to understand that this version of me is all I can be right now. They tell me it will get better and I do have hope it will.
I feel for you, I am sure there is many of us that know these feelings only too well. Please take care xx