It really sucks, @Molly71, doesn't it? At the end of our active treatment, we 'should' be going 'yahoo - let's get on with life' .... but sometimes it is difficult as you don't really feel like it.
I've had my days where I just stay in bed & migrate to the lounge for lunch & tv, ignoring phone calls & knocks on the front door .... We're allowed to do that, too, now & then.
It really is a situation of BC & AC - Before Cancer & After Cancer - and we have become 2 very different people. Our peace of mind has been shattered - our confidence in the future is challenged - and whilst family & friends 'think' we are 'better now' .... mentally, it is a very different story. I think most of us have felt like you at one stage or another - so you are not alone xx
Keeping busy (when you are not working) doing things YOU love - will hopefully bring some joy & balance back to your life ..... Maybe try & do something 'new' at least once a month .... if you are into gardens, maybe visit the local Botanical Gardens or see what local gardens are open to the public ..... go to the movies .... just try & do something 'different' ....
Please ring the helpline here for a chat
1800 500 258 - or see if your surgeon can hook you up to a psychologist ... They should be able to give you some coping mechanisms xx. Do you have a breast care nurse? Perhaps your Cancer Centre may also be able to help you hook up with a Cancer Psychologist ...
Have you thought of contacting Otis Foundation. They are a wonderful philanthropic group who arrange for BC families to have 4-6 days away in a beautiful property in your state -
https://www.otisfoundation.org.au/page/1/abouttake care, things DO get better xx