Well, apart from the last line, because I do want to be me, however I can do without some of the legacies and after effects of breast cancer, like the legacy of breast cancer treatment induced heart disease.
Life is precious, but so is still being able to continue doing the activities that bought joy and meaning to life, that were able to be undertaken easily prior to breast cancer. I know that I would like to live a life without the legacy of continual chronic pain.
As an extremely private person, who does not relish reliving my medical history to all and sundry doctors, most of whom are now young enough to be my grandsons or granddaughters, because in most cases, a reading of my notes has not been undertaken, my dignity is of utmost importance to me. It is how I hold my head high and go about living in a small town where dignity and privacy is lipservice only.
We read about new research on cancer treatments and medications and have such high hopes, and then the clincher that rocks our little world - such treatments or drugs are in the future of five to ten years or more down the track, if at all.
Crystal Steele's "If Only" is experienced by most cancer people and need to be acknowledged in society. There is no point in burying one's head in the sand and being a "Pollyanna".