Hi @Piccme
You certainly have had a bad trot!
Three points from me:
1. agree this forum is a great resource and source of comfort for all those diagnosed with breast cancer.
2.for many of us ( which was certainly the case for me) a breast cancer diagnosis results in a “ re calibration” of what is important in ones life ( for example I have finally learnt to say “ no”).
3. you mention you have an 18 year old daughter - this will be a blessing and a motivation to cherish what you have and try and move forward for her sake . I lost my father to a sudden heart attack when I was 15 - I remember having a family meeting with my mum and sister who was 17 and after we hatched a plan not to lose the roof over our head we actually became much closer and stronger.
I still shed a tear and often at the most random of times ( like at the supermarket checkout) and that’s normal after any loss let alone the losses you have suffered but we humans are a resilient lot so you will get through it .
Take care and get your GP to give you a mental health plan to see a psychologist if you think you need it - I had a couple is sessions and found them quite useful .
Take care.
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