Thank you. The counsellor I see is a trauma counsellor. I have been seeing her since half way through treatment. She has also had breast cancer herself so she really gets it. She is wonderful and we have come a long way. I have been told previously that I have a disassociative disorder. I tend to pretend that everything is fine and ok and focus on others and most of the time it gets me through but every now and then, it all gets too much and it comes to a head. I'm feeling better today since my little melt down. I only see her once a month and of course this has all this is happening in between appointments. I can't go into everything on here, but there has been so much of late, you just wonder when enough is enough. I wish you all well, particularly CRM who is just starting out on this bloody awful process. Thanks again xx